Take Care of me........

Daily Overview for February 6, 2010 (Today)Libra
Quickie
Take care of yourself! You could use some quiet time to get back that peace of mind.
Overview
It's a really good time for you to deal with that clutter in the basement -- or wherever it may be. Your attachment to things is more thoughtful, so you are more willing to get rid of what you don't need.


This is so true.....I need to learn to take care of me........I need to stop sabatoging myself.  Someone tell me how to do this and stick to it.  I need to get myself  to a place that I'm balanced.

hope-a scope

Daily Love for February 3, 2010 Libra
Daily Flirt
Troubles with roommates -- or neighbors or a sweetheart or your parents -- are brewing. If you have nothing nice to say, bit your tongue. And don't fight back: the storm will pass soon.
Daily Singles:
You see an old friend in a new light; this person has much more possibility as a romantic connection. Just remember that it's hard to go back to the way things were if this doesn't work out the way you thought it would.

Yes I always check my hope-a-scope!!!!! I even have my bff checking my hope-a-scope and when it's good he sends it to me.  With that said my daily flirt for today.....Ic can totally see.....Not happy with my son but I decided to keep my mouth shut and see what happens.  I'm not even going to go into it because....just because.   And I'm up in the air with my parents.....I need to move they are trying to help me find a house but I can't get a mortgage, I don't want to give them the details why.  I just need to figure out how to take care of it and do it.  Then move forward with everything and my life. 
 
Now that daily singles thing......how long do you have to know someone to consider them old friend??   I don't know of any old friend that I would want to have a romantic connection with, but I have a friend of several months . that feels like a old friend......and I would so enjoy adding more to the relationship, even one with a little more of a romantic connection.  Not that I really believe or think it will happen but that is why it is called hope-a-scope!!   What does it take to move things forward to the next level with a friend that is leery......well call it what it is......scared???  Guess it's gonna take more patience, along with some good teasing and leading in the right direction.  Maybe.......wtf am i saying......I'm freakin clueless!!

Nicknames

As I grew up I never had a nickname, my parent, family, friends have always called me by my name.  Sometimes in high school your friends give you a nickname but everyone has always called me by my name.  I always thought it would be so neat to have a nickname, even when I was married my ex never even gave me a nickname.   When I changed job positions and I worked with new people, my bff gave me a nickname.......he calls me Chief......because of that others call me Chief too.  I really like that and enjoy it, I find it very charming.  Kind of makes me feel important and special to them even if it is work related.
Now I have another nickname, I'm not even sure how he came up with the name but it was so funny and sweet that it is all good......he calls me Mimi or sometimes Mims.  He never calls me by my name I'm not even sure if he actually knows my first name.  But when he calls me Mimi just makes me melt (god I'm such a lush).  So i like being Mimi to him and look forward to hearing him call me Mimi again!!

moving on

I have lived in this apartment for 20 months, it was a good place to start over but I need to move on and forward.  I really want a house that will be mine but I'm not having much luck.  It so sucks to be in the position I am in.  Guess I will try to find a house to rent and maybe then something else will come along.  I honestly know the best thing I could do is put all my stuff in storage and move back in with my parents, but I absolutely know I can not do it.  I could cry just thinking the thought.  I need to be on my own and have my own place.  I love my parents so much and I know they wouldn't mind me being there but I just can't do it.  So with that said I  need to get over my feelings of confusion and disappointment, move forward and find a new place to live.  Tomorrow it will be full steam ahead in my search.......it won't be forever and I will find someplace that will work out for me!!  Good, positive, happy thoughts!!!!

Rocked his World!!

I haven't really talked about any men in a while probably won't talk about this one much on here. Haven't been with anyone in several months.  I have a friend I would like to be more than friends but if friend is all it can be that's ok.  I enjoy just talking to him, we laugh together , have fun together, so open and honest it feels unreal sometimes.  We have "messed" around some....him with me and finally I got to take care of him.  With all this going on the only thing is we haven't had sex, and i honestly can say I'm ok with that.  Even if I really want it I'm ok waiting.  Someday it will happen because there is too much of a drawn between us, and as good as everything else has felt to this point I think I will enjoy that with him also.  It should be very good.  But I did get the chance to make it good for him.....and I think I rocked his world.  I have never enjoyed giving a blow job as much as I did doing it for him. Even turns me on thinking about his reaction to get the blowjob.  It will be several days until I talk to him again.  Now that has to do with when something intense happens he needs space because I think he gets scared.  He also has school and I have things to do so it is    st as well that we have some space.  Also gives him time to think about it over and over along with watching the video clip he took over and over........should make for interesting conversation the next time I talk to him. So here's a high five to me getting it right.  Can't wait to get another chance to rock his world!!

Cold road and stuff

Went for a walk this morning at about 11am.  It was freakin cold but I got out and walked.  Woo hoo brownie points for me.  BTW this is about another goal I have been working on and that is losing weight.  I have lost some, working hard to eat better, take my lunch everyday, try to exercise.  I have noticed I do feel better, when I eat things that I have cut out because it isn't that good for me it almost makes me sick.  I stopped drinking soda (except when I go out and party--crown and coke yum), drink more water.  I divorced my husband because I wanted to be happy in my life and make/have a better life.  I am finally figuring out what I want and where I want to go.  Now to enjoy and move into my life and happiness..........it'sgonna be good to be me!!

goals

I have been on a new coarse for my life in the last 2 months.  I have to say I do think I am making a little progress.  At least enough to make me feel better about my life and myself.  I have a long way from where I was just 2 months ago.  I do have to say I have a friend to thnak for saying something to me that made something in my head click that I wasn't happy with how I was living my life.  Now I have been working to make the changes in my life, there are still several things I want to do.  First thing is my housing situation.....I have something in the works and if it works I am gonna be a happy camper.  I look forward to the opportunity to make this house my own.  This is a dream I've had for years, while I was still married and knew it would never happen.  I am so close now that I can feel it in my bones.  If it falls thru.......it will be ok because I have another house lined up, I just don't like this other house as much.  I need a place to work and make my own.  I would like to go back to school, I just can't decide if I want to do a full program or just take classes in what I'm interested in.  Then I also need to make a decision on exactly what I want to do.   I want and need to make my life better and I'm not sure staying at Payless and what I'm doing is it.  I love my job for the most part, I love most of the people I work with, and I even don't mind the customers but I don't feel like that my life will move forward if I stay where i am.  Some of it is the money factor, ok, alot is the money factor but I also want to be able to progress forward in what I'm doing.  So my first objective is getting a house and getting that settled.  I am hoping to be where I want to be with that by the end of the summer.  Then looking at the possiblity of school in the fall.  Also been thinking about putting in apps for other jobs.  Maybe I need to fill out a resume and do some of the online job search things.