moving on

I have lived in this apartment for 20 months, it was a good place to start over but I need to move on and forward.  I really want a house that will be mine but I'm not having much luck.  It so sucks to be in the position I am in.  Guess I will try to find a house to rent and maybe then something else will come along.  I honestly know the best thing I could do is put all my stuff in storage and move back in with my parents, but I absolutely know I can not do it.  I could cry just thinking the thought.  I need to be on my own and have my own place.  I love my parents so much and I know they wouldn't mind me being there but I just can't do it.  So with that said I  need to get over my feelings of confusion and disappointment, move forward and find a new place to live.  Tomorrow it will be full steam ahead in my search.......it won't be forever and I will find someplace that will work out for me!!  Good, positive, happy thoughts!!!!