You know I was thinkin about all the things I would like to blog about in this blog. Where to start.....what to tell......how much to tell........so I guess I just need to move on.

It took me a while to realize after I left, got my own place and statrted going out (and I mean going out is going out partyin not dating) how much the ex controlled my personality or at least tried too. I dont have problems talking to strangers, making friends having a good time and even if I'm out on my own. So that was the first big thing I did was go out and drink at bars on my own. I have had some of the most fun starting out on my own. I'm comfortable with my own company but man company is much more fun.

So start at the beginning.......this first man......wow did I have the hots for him.....tall and built like a brick shit house (and remember the shit house part for later). I absolutely love big men and at this point I mean in stature, and this one was amazing. He is like 6'4" and about 290 lbs, he lifted weights. I wanted to absolutely wrap myself around him. So whenever I would see him at work I would oogle him unmercifully and told my coworkers that I would do him in a heartbeat or I like to say "I'd ride that pony!!!!!!"

Bless my coworker for helping me out and gave him my number and told him I wanted to talk to him. Well one thing you have to understand he is a cop in my little corner of the world and besides having the hots for large stature men I have a thing for cops, firemen, soldier........it is the uniform thing but has to be a unifornm of authority. The bug guy uniform dont get it, if you know what I mean. Much to my surprise he calls me actually called me, that in of itself just blew me away..........anyway he thinks I want to speak to him as a cop and I need help.......well I wanted help alright LOL some very personal special help!!!!! Hell I was even game for the handcuffs, thought that is what cops like and want to to have willing handcuffed woman at his mercy and at this point "willing" is my middle name......... So we talk several time and things get pretty suggestive and graphic and I just this once gonna mention file 42............let's move on ahead from there. Yes we finally "hook up" he did things to me I wish I could do again but not with him. Details how much detail.......have to think about that one and pick up there next time.........to be continued