Cold road and stuff

Went for a walk this morning at about 11am.  It was freakin cold but I got out and walked.  Woo hoo brownie points for me.  BTW this is about another goal I have been working on and that is losing weight.  I have lost some, working hard to eat better, take my lunch everyday, try to exercise.  I have noticed I do feel better, when I eat things that I have cut out because it isn't that good for me it almost makes me sick.  I stopped drinking soda (except when I go out and party--crown and coke yum), drink more water.  I divorced my husband because I wanted to be happy in my life and make/have a better life.  I am finally figuring out what I want and where I want to go.  Now to enjoy and move into my life and happiness..........it'sgonna be good to be me!!

goals

I have been on a new coarse for my life in the last 2 months.  I have to say I do think I am making a little progress.  At least enough to make me feel better about my life and myself.  I have a long way from where I was just 2 months ago.  I do have to say I have a friend to thnak for saying something to me that made something in my head click that I wasn't happy with how I was living my life.  Now I have been working to make the changes in my life, there are still several things I want to do.  First thing is my housing situation.....I have something in the works and if it works I am gonna be a happy camper.  I look forward to the opportunity to make this house my own.  This is a dream I've had for years, while I was still married and knew it would never happen.  I am so close now that I can feel it in my bones.  If it falls thru.......it will be ok because I have another house lined up, I just don't like this other house as much.  I need a place to work and make my own.  I would like to go back to school, I just can't decide if I want to do a full program or just take classes in what I'm interested in.  Then I also need to make a decision on exactly what I want to do.   I want and need to make my life better and I'm not sure staying at Payless and what I'm doing is it.  I love my job for the most part, I love most of the people I work with, and I even don't mind the customers but I don't feel like that my life will move forward if I stay where i am.  Some of it is the money factor, ok, alot is the money factor but I also want to be able to progress forward in what I'm doing.  So my first objective is getting a house and getting that settled.  I am hoping to be where I want to be with that by the end of the summer.  Then looking at the possiblity of school in the fall.  Also been thinking about putting in apps for other jobs.  Maybe I need to fill out a resume and do some of the online job search things. 

tomorrows love hope-a-scope

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Daily Flirt:
You're going back and forth on something right now -- it's like you're having a debate with yourself. You're used to holding your own in debate with other people, but this is something else entirely.
Daily Singles:
If you spend all your time worrying about what one date or another thought about you, you wouldn't have a life. So this one didn't work out. Big deal. Some people in this world just have bad taste.

I am so addicted to reading my horoscope everyday and a lot of time they are so close it it down right creepy, scary, funny.....take your pick.
     For the daily single......that  I spend alot of time worrying what someone thought of me is so true and so true that I need to stop worrying about it......"that some people in this world just have bad taste" is also true I need to stop always wondering, worrying, and thinking that things are my fault or there is something wrong with me.........I'm realizing that alot of the time its not me. 
 
A few weeks ago I made myself a sign that I hung up in place that I would see on a daily bases, to remind myself that my life is about me.......being happy, being strong, being loved, being kind, being beautiful and always moving forward.  I know this probably sounds corny but I am the only peron that can make these things happe for me. 

love ho------scope!!!

Daily Flirt:


Things are going really well for you these days. Still, it's obvious that your life would be a lot more fun if you had someone to share it with. The right person will come along when you're not expecting it.
Ok -- so hello Mr Right Person.....My name is ****** and I'm ready to meet you!!!!


Daily Singles:


Feeling antsy? No wonder! You're ready to get a move on, but your friends like the same old watering holes. Convince them that there are bigger and better prospects to be had at different venues.

So true need some new views!!!!

discovery!!!

I made.....for me a profound discovery!!!  I want to have a relationship, not sure what kind or how far.  I know at this point I don't plan on every getting married again, I want more than a fuck buddy. Don't know if I can say I want a boyfriend because I feel like at my age "do you have a boyfriend"???  Boyfriend sounds so high school to me for some reason.  Now the big discovery?????  I have been very leery of men because I don't want to be hurt, I still don't but (this is the discovery part) life is full of hurts, disappointments, disillusion, and that is ok.  It is how you handle all of lifes hurts, disappointments, and disilluions.......chalk it up at a learning exercise.....I'm better and stronger...........but most of all I'm going to move on and most importantly forward.  With that said stop laughing because it works for me.

Horoscopes

Ok so do you read your horoscope, hope, wonder, imagine that they know what they are talking about.
Well lately I have gotten absolultely habitual about reading mine.....not only the one that is a app on my phone but one from yahoo.  Found this thing on yahoo called "manage your life on Shine" its at //shine.yahoo.com.  Has some other interesting stuff but I love the horoscope stuff.  Like my bff said to me it is funny how it seems to mirrors so much that is going on in my life. 
     Now this morning I have come to the conclusion yet again that I have a friend I need to have a talk with.  I think of him as a friend and I would love for it to be more but just don't think it will happen.  He says he wants to be friends but he wants a friendly hi how are you friend......at least that is more of how I see it.  I'm over wondering if it is me.  When deep down if I would let it up and out, I know it is not me.......he has the I scared, I'm a pussy, or whatever it is issues. So with that said......during my walk in the park today I made up my mind I am gonna have my say when I see him, After I got home and look at my horoscope and this is what it said...................

Sure, it looks obvious on the surface. But look closer. You're missing something:

Try to reach a close friend or family member, preferably in person, for a nice long chat. You need to unburden yourself somewhat, though it shouldn't end up being a festival of tears.

This is so on the mark of what I was thinking it is almost weird.  Now I just need to be able to do it and then whatever is to be will be

Valentine....................

I just have this to say
 LOVE STINKS.............
and FUCK VALENTINE'S

Thank you!!!!
hehehe and it isn't even February yet!
Just think how I'll feel come Feb 14th