discovery!!!

I made.....for me a profound discovery!!!  I want to have a relationship, not sure what kind or how far.  I know at this point I don't plan on every getting married again, I want more than a fuck buddy. Don't know if I can say I want a boyfriend because I feel like at my age "do you have a boyfriend"???  Boyfriend sounds so high school to me for some reason.  Now the big discovery?????  I have been very leery of men because I don't want to be hurt, I still don't but (this is the discovery part) life is full of hurts, disappointments, disillusion, and that is ok.  It is how you handle all of lifes hurts, disappointments, and disilluions.......chalk it up at a learning exercise.....I'm better and stronger...........but most of all I'm going to move on and most importantly forward.  With that said stop laughing because it works for me.