where life takes you

Isn't it amazing where life takes you??  Sometime good....everyone only hopes for the good but that isn't the way it always works.  Then sometimes......probably alot of the time it is where you let yourself be taken or just ride the flow along.  That is what I am dealing with now.......where I have let mysef be taken.  Honestly I don't blame anyone but myself.  That is the whole of it.......I know I was stupid about things and I let them happen.  So now I am left to deal with and figure out te consquences to the actions i've taken.  I know reading this you can only be thinking what the f**k is she rambling about?  I will ramble it all out soon, I need to think about it some more and get myself to the place I face up to my own shortcomings.  You don't get to my age and not realize you make mistakes but the hard part is saying to yourself.....I screwed up, it will be ok, correct it when you can and move forward.  I am at a time where I need to make decisions for myself and remember "It is about ME!!!"  taking care of me, making me strong, knowing me is beautiful, making me happy, loving me and alwys move forward.  Don't dwell on the past.......past mistakes, past mistreatments, past hurts, past fear.  Everyday is a new day........what will it brings me but what will I bring the new day??