Nightmare or what?

Last night I dreamed about my ex...I dreamed that I told him I would take him back if he promised to change, that I missed him and still loved him!! Cough, choke, spit, gage snarl,and a few other obscence noises that dream is never gonna happen and that was more of a nightmare then anything!! I don't miss him, don't miss much from being married but I can honestly say there is a little I do miss......like...regular sex would be the big thing but also someone to eat dinner with, someone to just shoot the shit with, someone to watch tv with, or to aggravate, goof with, cry on,and the companionship but honestly I didn't get a lot of that from my ex so I have missed and craved someone for all those things for a long time. I just wonder if I will ever find someone to have those simple things with...guess time will tell and only god knows if I will and when!!