Self Satisfaction

Self satisfaction can come in so many forms......what do you think of when someone says self satisfction?  Doing things for yourself that makes you happy.........buying that outfit you love, going out to eat at your favorite restuarant, going for a drive, walking in the park, taking a long hot bath, watching your favorite tv show, watching what you want on tv, having control of the remote, reading a book for hours on end, sleeping in as late as you want, going to the tanning bed, getting a puppy, listening to the music you enjoy, etc. etc. etc
I just realized in typing this that most people and especially women (wives and moms) don't do what they would like to do for themselves, not even some of the time because they are usually doing for someone else, like a spouse or children.  I know because that was the way my life used to be and now I do more for myself but I'm not so sure I feel the self satisfaction.  My son's have their own lives, I have my own life without a spouse (which that part I'm happy about)  but now I have more time to contemplate silly things like self satisfaction and what it means to me.  I listed all those things and yes some of those things make me happy but mostly it makes me happy that I can do those things without feeling guilty, or having t explain myself to someone else.  In all honesty I started this about self satisfaction and it turned into a way more serious topic then I wanted it to be ...........my self satisfaction was orginally the thought of satisfying myself without having a man........yes that is exactly what I mean.......spending a few meaningful moments with my toys!!!!  Pushing myself over that personal edge to momentary happiness, relief, relaxaion and bliss.  Damn if that feeling could just last a little longer........hell a man can't even do that!!!!! So here's to self satisfation!!!!!