teenager vs adult

I have been thinking for the last several days that I would really like to find someone to be with on a more regular bases. Not necessaily to marry or anything like that but someone to go out with...dinner, movie, shopping,mini roadtrip,fair, festivals,concert or even to hang out with at home to watch movies fix dinner things like that. I don't need or mean for either of us to be up each others butt 24-7. And yes someone to have sex with but I have this war inside of me that I have those moments like when I was a teenager and feel desperate for someone to love me. Like I never will find anyone....the old maid syndrome. I hate that feeling and in my adult mature grown up mind I know that isn't true and even know that the old maid thing is bullshit. Even in all honesty I'm not desparate by any means just in that moment of wishing for someone it kind of kicks in. As a adult I know it is not that big of a deal to be alone because I do have friends but its those time when I want to go to the movies and don't have anyone or things like that when the teenager stuff kicks in. In all I like my space and my time to myself but then do miss the campionship of someone to be there too. Maybe some of it is my own fault....am I too picky? I don't want someone that is going to take advantage of me and yes my kindness....I'm no ones free ride and I don't want a free ride from a man either. Not to mention looks....like I have room to talk but it is what it is....so the question is what do I want and.....be a adult or a teenager?? LoL at least in the feelings department!!